Once upon a time and, I can say that now because it's been a dang long time back. 50 years back. Damn how time flies when you're having fun? Story, I was once one of those alleged evangenital christians studying for ministry and all manner of "christian bullshit" like that there. Anyway as things have a way of turning to shit rather quickly, I was making friends with a young man and his new wife and child that had come into the ministry I'm speaking on. The man was killed in an automobile accident and left his wife and new baby in grief. I tried helping as best I could. Not much to be done and not actually having completed ministry training I was devastated at the man's demise, his family left bereft, and my faith shaken. Broken? Yeah probably that. Anyway I was adrift and being an elder in this "ministry" and an almost junior minister, I was I guess supposed to suck it up and minister on. I couldn't and didn't and very soon and at an "elders meet and greet" to assess a week's ministering, I was removed from the ministry, my position as an elder, and being able to "teach" new christians about faith. Without explanation or reasoning were given me. Needless to say I was broken. Maybe that was "god's plan" all along. To break me and the "plan" worked. I stopped going to the, I'm going to name this church right now, Church In The Park, the 'church in the park' meet on Sunday afternoons in Liberty Park in Salt Lake City and back then it's was kind of a big deal. Anyway I turned my back on christianity and faith and jesus/god whatever, and almost immediately dove back into the fun world of drugs. I used drugs to ease the pain I was living. Now exactly fifty years later I feel compelled to shed light on my side of one painful evangenital inquisition and I'm going to name names of the people that were "allegedly" my brothers and sisters in christ. The names are names that I can tag real life hypocrisy to. One Ms. Christine Panushka, professor emeritus Animation, University of Southern California ... Santo Nicotera retired teacher of "christian children" Tucson, Arizona ... One Mark Wiser who is now attached to my first ex wife. Damn is that ironically ironic or what. Wiser shed his first wife that was best friends with my first ex wife and I can offer only what ifs on that note. One genius woman name Cathy Miller Miller who is a double or possibly triple holder of PhD's from the University of Utah. I don't know of Ms. Miller's whereabouts and that's probably for the best. I do not hold Ms. Miller in any sort of disregard. There are a number of other inquisitors of which I will only name one and this guy is more than likely the impetus for my being removed from "fellowship." One Jerry White of whom I really could care less if the fuck is alive or now dead. Now dead would be amicable. And the "minister of this mess-o-potamia" one now dead Eugene Michael Higney. Died of some blood cancer or some shit and I truly hope that demise was painful as a motherfucker. Higney destroyed a whole lot of souls and that is unforgivable. So in a nutshell there you have it. Evangenital Inquisition that IS NOT supposed to happen in this day and age and sure as hell not fifty years back that determined my path in life. Taken some dark turns, some brightly lit enlightened turns and now one militant and left turn as I stand in abject opposition to the trump nazi regime and all their heinous bullshit. Religion, any and all of it, is an opiate that will kill the souls and spirits of real people and it needs to be shut down.
Now for Thursday machine art ...
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the passage of time is a very curious happening. things people come go in out of a life with down times up times times that should best be described as horrific times that can only be described as better left unspoken on. well fuck that. I have children that I failed horribly and for that I can only say ... shit there's nothing can be said. I fucked them over and several women that are now ex wives and that too is best left in the past. however, I'm standing now with a clear and sober mind that has encompassed things that were unobtainable back a long while ago. I've learned how to unfold the wings of my perception and that is miraculous all in and of itself. 😎
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